I've always dreamt of selling all my belongings, buying a trailer and living simply while being able to travel wherever I want to go knowing my home is going to be right there with me. Well, it's not a dream anymore. Pat and I are making this fantasy a reality this year! I made the decision to sell my house this year and my original plan was to buy a couple smaller places so I could rent one out for income and also have a place for Pat and I to build a home together in. But such is life, plans change. I currently rent my house out and live at Pat's place and my rental property is just an annoyance to me at this point. I don't enjoy the responsibility of being a home owner. It stresses me out and gives me anxiety more than anything else in the world. It occurred to me that jumping from one situation that makes me unhappy right into another isn't a great idea. While it's a great and solid way to make a steady income, I never wanted this to be my life...I just kind of fell into it. It doesn't make me happy or feel fulfilled and it definitely doesn't inspire me to grow as an individual. So fuck it! We're moving into an airstream!
I know it seems crazy to most, but to us, it's perfect. We both love to travel so having a cozy space to relax and call home wherever we are is ideal. Not to mention it's gonna be a whole lot easier than owning a giant house...I'm fucking over that! There's always something to fix, something new to buy and I know I'm personally not thrilled about how attached I've become to my belongings. I'd like to change it, so I'm going to. I want a simpler, less complicated and cluttered life. What better way to do that than to purge myself of everything I own (except the essentials, of course) and start fresh with very little room for things that we don't need. Pat and I both have a habit of buying shit we don't need and as a result, turning our house into a cluster fuck of shit we don't even remember buying. I mean, I just gutted my wardrobe this week and I found not one, but many articles of clothing that haven't even had the tag ripped off! That's a problem! It embarrassed me to confront the harsh reality that I live to consume these days. Whether it's the newest have-to-have styles, new technology or straight up splurging on eating out EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. It's gotten out of control. I don't remember "things" making me happy when I was younger, but rather, the relationships I had with other people. I want to get back to that which seems impossible with the sheer amount of cool shit just laying around my house to play with. Maybe it will be easier to be more involved in my relationships if I have nothing. No distractions. Simplicity at it's finest.
I've always been really inspired by the do it yourselfers who on a whim got an old trailer and completely renovated it themselves. Talk about #goals! Something abut it has always excited me and I knew one day I wanted to follow in those footsteps of the people who like me, are just over living a conventional life. I guess I'm tired of saying "someday" so, why not now? I mean, really, why the fuck not? What is holding me back? I don't want to be a person who keeps saying "someday I'll do this!" I want to be a person that makes shit happen, so I'm busting my butt trying to do just that. I'm excited to say goodbye to our traditional home and jump into our new, unconventional adventure. I'm hoping (and pretty optimistic) that with less to worry about I'll have time and drive to throw myself into learning new things and experiencing life to the fullest. I'm sure one day Pat and I will return to a conventional way of having a home, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there. For now, I'm excited to not worry about if I paid that bill or not, if the home owners association approves of the way my house looks and all the guidelines and rules. Fuck rules, seriously. I want to feel free of the burden of a traditional lifestyle and I'm so excited to wake up one morning in our airstream not worrying about things the way I do now. Here's to simplicity. Here's to living life on your own terms. Following your own rules. I hope this year you all can have at least one "fuck it" moment and do what you always tell yourself you're going to do one day. Make that day today and don't hesitate. You only have one life, make it completely yours.
p.s. I can hardly believe this is going to be my life, but holy crap, the wheels are already turning!